My fortune just before we left |
So,
I left off telling you about priming for the cycle. Well, on January 22, I had CD1, so I went in
for my baseline ultrasound and blood work.
Everything looked fine with that, so we started stimulating (stim) shots
on Saturday, January 23. The start of my
stim shots looked like 150IU Menopur (2 vials) in the morning and 300IU
Follistim at night. I took 50mg of
Viagra 1 hour before each of these shots.
Really?! I was surprised,
too. Apparently, it helps your body to
absorb the medication. Unfortunately,
this stuff is a little pricey, and I was accidentally taking 100mg of it before
each shot. This lead to us having to
purchase it two more times in Denver, and one of those times, we paid $44 for a
single pill. Seriously.
Anyway,
I also had the honor of taking Dexamethasone and Clomid daily. The Dex isn’t a big deal, but I was
definitely nervous about the Clomid. I
have heard horror stories about the mood swings that medication will give
you. I’m pretty sure that God thought it
would be funny to let me have a shot at Clomid since I’ve never taken it. He thought it would be even funnier to mix it
with a plethora of additional hormones.
Awesome. I think we were both a
little nervous how this would go, but I have to admit, the side effects were
nothing like I expected. My moods were
pretty even keel this cycle, aside from one fit of anger about making a huge
decision. More on that later.
So,
I took the all-day cocktail of Viagra, Menopur, Follistim, Clomid, and
Dexamethasone for a total of 13 days.
The following Thursday, I had my first mid-cycle ultrasound and blood
work. I knew it was early, so I didn’t
put much stock on the number of follicles we were measuring.
The
next day, we made the trip to Colorado.
It was a great day! We laughed
and talked and no one napped. We just
enjoyed our time together.
Leaving home |
We stopped at the first sign of snow to take a picture for my mom |
Todd very much enjoyed the chocolate from our travel pack our best friends sent |
Our view from the back porch of the condo |
Proof that I cannot pack lightly. It's impossible. |
On
Saturday, we had our first mid-cycle ultrasound and blood work at CCRM. This was an experience. They perform your ultrasound; then move you
to a very small, private waiting room to talk to your nurse; then send you to
have blood drawn. On that day, we found
out we were only measuring 4 follicles that seemed to be growing at a good
rate. We were a little disappointed, but
we just assumed it was still pretty early.
This was only the eighth day of stims, after all.
The mecca of the infertility world |
That
afternoon, we went to Colorado Springs to do some sightseeing. We went to the Garden of the Gods and the
Olympic Training Center. Both were very
cool and fun things that neither of us had seen.
Garden of the Gods - The Balancing Rock |
Why is Colorado so windy?! |
The Olympic Training Center in Colorado Springs |
On
Sunday, they gave us a day off from appointments, so we hung out at the condo and
watch 18” of snow begin to fall from the sky.
It was magnificent. We added one
more shot to the mix; Ganirelix is not a stim shot, but it keeps you from
ovulating. The only complaint on this
one is that it’s a strange needle that doesn’t insert easily.
Our back patio where we did not get to eat |
When
Monday came, the real fun began. We
started the day with the regular ultrasound and blood work. Fortunately, they said it appeared we were
measuring one more follicle.
Unfortunately, this meant we were still only measuring five
follicles. Statistically, not great odds
with our history. We had a genetic class
to teach us all about how they would perform the genetic tests on our embryos
and what they were looking for. Then, we
had an individual consultation with a genetic counselor. Seriously, we have never had this kind of
information given to us. We ended the
day with a physical to make sure my body was ready for anesthesia during
transfer. I cannot stress enough how
kind and enjoyable all of the staff is at CCRM.
I know I mentioned it in the last post how Dr. Schoolcraft will
patiently answer all of your questions, and he must have trained his nurses
because they are the exact same way.
This is proof that we did setup a home office for the two of us to work while we were there. You're welcome, bosses! |
We left
there and headed into Denver to buy more Menopur and Viagra. We have always had to mail order my
injectable medications, so it was cool to be able to pull up to a pharmacy to
get them. It was about a 30 minute drive
to the pharmacy, but with Denver rush hour, we had plenty of time to discuss.
Our new pharmacy...where everybody knows your name (after you visit 3 times in 4 days) |
Tuesday,
we came back to the clinic for a regroup with Dr. Schoolcraft. Our nurse recommended it since we seemed to
be disappointed in the fact that we only had five follicles growing at the
right rate. It was at this time that he
informed us that he was not surprised with my response. Unfortunately, there was literally nothing
else he could do to make my body respond any better. He had given us the “bazooka” plan. It was the biggest and best that they only
give to patients with my type of ailments and history. He encouraged us to consider adding the two
extra cycles with banking that we had discussed before. We were absolutely distraught. We knew we had until my retrieval to decide
what to do about the extra cycles.
On
Wednesday, we had our fifth round of ultrasound and blood work since this cycle
started. The nurse said we were still
measuring with five follicles on track.
We left the clinic and headed into Denver for our second pick-up of injectable
medication and Viagra to hopefully last us the rest of the cycle. Later that afternoon, we drove back into
Denver (because we don’t know how to do all of these things at the same time?) to
see Todd’s urologist for his pre-op appointment. Sadly for Dr. Cowan, when he walked in the
room and asked how the cycle was going, I broke down into tears. He was prepared as he quickly handed me a box
of tissues and reminded us that we are in the best hands.
Thursday
brought round six of ultrasound and blood work and no changed news. We had our third trip to the Denver pharmacy
for more Follistim that day too. That
evening, we were lucky enough to get to go to dinner with my childhood friend
that we saw on the last trip. This time,
her little girls were with her, again, and so was her husband. It was a great break from the
all-encompassing decision of what we would do about adding more cycles. This was the first night that I lost my
marbles, though. I was so upset that we
couldn’t make a decision that I blew my lid.
Thank you, hormones.
The only picture we have ever taken of my ovaries. You can see multiple follicles at this angle. |
Before
we went to bed on Thursday, we did my first two of three trigger shots. These are the shots that cause your body to
ovulate the eggs. They have to be
exactly timed, or it can mess up a whole lot of stuff. In the past, I have only done one trigger
shot. This was the first time I was
getting to do three. Again, another
change to our protocol from our past.
The
next morning, we had to arrive for Todd’s retrieval. It was pretty cool. When you go to CCRM for surgery, they have an
underground garage that’s outside of the elements for you to park. We went through the regular pre-op stuff of
getting him changed, getting his IV, and answering questions for every doctor
and nurse in the building, including the all-loving Dr. Cowan. Once Todd was in surgery, I went down for a
final blood draw to make sure my body had properly absorbed the trigger
shots. When Dr. Cowan came out from
surgery and gave me a good report, I actually stood up to shake his hand. Instead, we somehow hugged, and it was
reassuring to know we had a doctor that we felt cared so much about our
case. I was finally able to go back and
see Todd, and he didn’t disappoint. Todd
on Propophol is always an enjoyment. We
made it home that day just in time for me to take my third and final trigger
and for both of us to get some rest.
Todd's personal belonging box at his surgery. He was proud of his shirt. He's so romantic! |
Pre-Op...a little nervous |
Post-Op...not a care in the world |
Making a homemade ice pack requires a Target sack, a ladle, and some patience. |
Saturday
was the day of truth. We headed to CCRM
knowing we still didn’t have our decision made.
We had just decided to “wing it.”
The retrieval order was just like Todd’s, only this time, they didn’t
make him go out into a waiting room when I went into surgery. Instead, he was able to go to my post-op
room, sit in a recliner, and was brought ice packs and warm blankets. Livin’ like a king! A while after retrieval was complete, an
embryologist came out to talk to us and tell us that they had retrieved 11
eggs. Now, this may sound like a massive
miracle, but we knew they would retrieve more eggs than we had
anticipated. The real question was how
many were mature. At that point, we were
supposed to make a decision on the extra cycles, and I know the embryologist
could tell we were still torn. She asked
if we would like for her to call us when they knew the maturity, and we were so
relieved. That would give us a much
better picture of what we were dealing with.
We loaded up and headed back to the condo for more rest.
A
few hours later, the call came. With
hearts beating, we answered and listened as she politely told us that seven of
the eggs were mature. SEVEN! Not five?!
We were told to hope for five. Nope, our God had shown His hand and blessed
us with seven mature eggs. We were
elated. Confidently, we told her to move
forward with just this one cycle. At
that moment, we knew that God was telling us to trust Him. It would take more faith for us to stop at
this one cycle than to continue adding more and more cycles.
On
Super Bowl Sunday, they called to tell us that six of those mature eggs were
able to be fertilized. What a huge
relief. But now the real wait began…
I guess you know you are killing me!!! Even though I know the rest of the story, it feels like you are leaving me on the edge. . .love your writing, Laura.
ReplyDeleteSorry I've been leaving you hanging for so long! :-)
DeleteI can't wait to read more. I love all your pictures. So glad you got to get out and enjoy beautiful CO too!
ReplyDeleteThanks, friend. Sorry it's been so long since I've written. I'm working on fixing that.
DeleteYou are a great writer!
ReplyDeleteI love that last photo of the balancing rock and Psalm 27:14.
God is in control. He has you and Todd in the palm of His hand. Thank you for letting me walk beside you through this journey.
You are so sweet, Belinda. Thank you for all of your support. I'm so lucky to get to walk our journeys together!
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