Thursday, December 13, 2012

Happy, Happy, Happy

If any of you have not seen Duck Dynasty, yet, I strongly suggest you watch it.  It’s good for the soul!  One of my two favorite characters (they’re actually real people, but sometimes, it’s so hard to believe) is Phil Robertson.  He’s always talking about things he does or his wife, Miss Kay, does for the other that makes them “Happy, happy, happy.”  Well, their show makes me happy, happy, happy.

And that is how I have been this week.  The last few weeks have been quite awful at times.  Don’t get me wrong, there have been some wooooooonderful (another story about Todd’s cousin, Kathy, inserted here) moments.  However, there have been some of the lowest moments I have had in many years.  Basically, I have been fighting some deep depression.  However, Todd has been home this entire week, and we’ve made some changes that seem to be getting me back on track.  I’m very glad about that!

Thank you for checking on me today, Carri.  It made my day!  J

On another note, I have given up boot camp…for now.  My joints just can’t handle it.  However, I have taken up water aerobics.  I am hands-down the youngest participant in the class.  I have taken two classes and enjoy them kind of.  Honestly, I get bored doing that for an entire hour!  Todd is taking me this weekend to show me how to get a workout swimming laps.  Maybe I’ll enjoy it better.

Good news…I had my last shot a week ago today.  I’m thrilled!  My nurse, Kelly, says I can go back to boot camp in about 3 months.  I’m hoping that she’s exaggerating, and it will be more like 4 weeks.  J  I go back to see Dr. Bundren on January 2.  At that point, he’ll put me on birth control pills to normalize my cycle and “plump my insides back-up” (as the nurse put it).  I’m just very happy to almost be moving onto the next phase of this process.  That’s one step closer to Making Baby Provence!!

Friday, December 7, 2012

Getting Pathetic

I Facebooked with a girl this week that I have known forever. She's pregnant after lots of fertility complications. Anyway, she said to me that this journey can be really lonely at times. I couldn't agree more! I'm sitting in my car, in the garage, in the complete darkness, dreading going inside. My house has never felt as lonely as it has this week without Todd. I have pretty much done anything I could to avoid going home every night this week. I have cried on and off for the last 3 days. It's been a very lonely week! These mood swings are kicking my tail!! So glad Todd comes home tonight. I wonder how long I can stand this darkness...

On a happier note, Audrey, your notes this week were a happy spot in my week. I'm so excited for you and your pregnancy! I can't wait to catch-up on your blog!